The universe is too absurd to truly be understood

I don't know what is happening.
I'm confused and scared and hopeful. It is killing me.

I spoke with my boyfriend... Ex-boyfriend. And I don't know what is happening.

I need to understand.

Save me...

Fuck this shit

So, my boyfriend's is supposed to leave today (in 2,5 hours) instead of yesterday.

But well, he broke up with me.

When it feels like your stomach wants you dead

Current time and date: 4:48pm January 1st 2011

My boyfriend will be here: 4:40am~ January 3rd 2011

I. Am. Dying.
I'm so nervous, can someone kill me?
My stomach hurts and I can't think clearly.

All I can think is 'What if he doesn't like me?'.

Someone save me.